EXTREMELY delayed with blogging lol, not going to go in lots of detail of everything that has happened in these two months but I write a lot anyway lol so most likely it's going to be in detail regardless. I went out somewhere nearly everyday during the holidays, but I'll leave most of them out from here. Actually, I think I forgot some things that have happened these two months, might have to revisit this entry if I remember something important, haha.

January
From 2009-2011, entering the new year has been memorable. 2008/09 was spent at Darling Point for my aunt's 60th birthday party; the view was brilliant, watching the fireworks and being in such fun environment. 2009/10 was fast paced, leaving London to go to Barcelona in the morning (by plane). Spain was the second country to visit on my first major holiday, and it was the first time in my life to watch sunrise. It made me very happy and I took it as a sign for change, and in retrospect, many things changed from that day on. 2010/11 was the first NYE/NYD where I didn't feel lonely because I celebrated the occasion with friends (Joshua and Cameron), who are basically family anyway. We didn't do anything extravagant but it was different being with people for the whole day, no one arguing and people were actually happy (by myself the previous years although there were people there). LOL during the new year countdown, Josh literally jumped to the new year while I ran back to help Cam as he was about to trip lol (FFVII reference lol reminded me of the very beginning of the game when Cloud helped Jessie as the Mako Reactor was about to blow up lol).
After two years, a high school group reunion (yes, including YJ xD) was organised by Fuu. It was difficult in the previous months as everyone was so busy, but it pulled off eventually. Amazing after two years and several mishaps here and there, we all got along so well and it wasn't awkward despite the differences and maturity of us all now.

February
Feb 12, late meeting up with Josh and others in the morning, an extremely wonderful day, good reminder why I love my friends so much :D Went to Racha's birthday party later that evening, it was a great night although it was sad because only Josh and I turned up :/ until two others showed up after 11, it sort of made Racha happy.

Tropfest 2011 with Josh, Cam and Mia was good except I was being a whiny bitch who made things worse... the day could have been better, I'm sorry for dragging you all down.



February 10 = Friendship Day (tradition began February 10, 2010). People are strange- on a daily basis, if insulted, people feel depressed and insecure; if complimented, people may feel insulted and insecure or like the person complimenting is too friendly or trying to hit on the person they're complimenting. Story of my life lol to the people who ever felt that way but are still considered worthwhile in my life, merry friendship day! I'm still learning to become a better friend and I've stuffed up a lot recently, but I will make it up to you all (I said this a few months ago... not much has improved until now. Or at least I hope so :/ ).
My pre-birthday was fantastic, managed to get a dinner organised by Fuu ;) We went to Jazushi (it's been more than a year since I've last been there). Being the noob that I am, I forgot to bring my camera and forgot to straighten my hair and wear make up LOL what's new, it's like that every other day but still, dinner date with Fuu? Want to look my best haha. Dinner was fabulous, it's too delicious to describe here... honestly, I would have described in detail everything about the meal and get my food critic days back on again however my cravings will go out of control when I begin to remember the tastes of the meals (5 course meal, oh yeah). Food would have been a good replacement for the lack of words but as I have already mentioned, I did not bring a camera, although Fuu did so I might upload pictures later. Being a restaurant that also plays LIVE JAZZ in such a cozy environment, it's no wonder Jazushi is my favourite restaurant (lol I do not work there and I am not a [paid] promoter). Outstanding covers played by the jazz triplet were "My Funny Valentine" and "New York, New York". Seriously, my favourite genre(s) of music being played, dinner with one of my closest friends of more than 10 years at my favourite restaurant the day before my birthday. I also got a necklace (Thomas Sabo) with an Eiffel Tower charm on it (Paris was one of the best cities I've visited) and other things which I will not write LOL. I'm still overwhelmed with happiness from everything (haha, reminiscing at the moment), I want to write something but I can only think of the most simplest words possible: Thank you, Fuu, for being an incredible friend, sister and everything else to make life more complete :)

In some countries, February 14 is not known as "St. Valentine's Day" but as "Friendship day" (or a name similar to that) where one celebrate their friends and family. Before learning this, I've officially started celebrating this day on February 10. Looking back last year on that day, I didn't know that that event would be a catalyst for my relationships with people, those I know and would eventually meet. Admittedly, I became selective in my friends and were good to the ones who were equally good; the others I fell apart with.
Perhaps it hurts more when realisation hits- being betrayed, gossiped about, used, teased because I look like the fragile type to be easily taken advantaged of or am not quite the same, knowing that our relationship will end soon because of all these factors. However, one must always look on the bright side- the people who were there through all the pain and hardship, and the silly, fun and heartwarming moments. When I wanted to give up on life, I didn't want to give up on these people- I want to protect them and be with them (physically impossible but spiritually, of course) and cherish every moment, past, present and future.